The Waiting Game

OK, so, I've not been nearly as great at blogging as I aspired to be at the beginning.  This is mostly because, I am just kind of whiny lately.  There are times I really think I sound quite like my nearly-4-year-old about this whole adoption process.  "Has it happened yet?"  "Has it happened yet?"  "Is it going to happen?"  "When will it happen?"  The funny thing about this is that when my daughter asks me constant questions like this, I get kind of annoyed.  However, my annoying questions are going to God.  I take comfort in knowing He isn't annoyed with me and that in truth, like me with my daughter, He is teaching me during this waiting season.  He is teaching me patience far beyond what I thought I could be capable of.  Obviously, I will never be patient like God and, like any child, I am not necessarily taking this lesson well.  I'm still whining and complaining quite a bit.  However, I feel myself recognizing my attitude and am truly working on stopping the whining.  I think by recognizing my attitude, especially by paralleling it to a nearly-four-year-old's, God has shown me something pretty important. 

Lately, I am also trying to distract myself - a lot.  First, it was with a new profile album.  Yes, previously I said I would not do this again, but the newest one really is the best.  It is all colorful and happy looking.  I love it!  If you're curious what this looks like, here is the link (http://www1.snapfish.com/snapfish/projectshareewelcome/l=6314857002/p=85181305761662117/g=24925953/cobrandOid=1000/COBRAND_NAME=snapfish/otsc=SYE/otsi=SPBKlink/).  Matt and I also decided to go ahead and put together a video to go along with our online profile.  I had a blast putting this together and am so excited for how it turned out.  I included the video on my last blog post.  These were great distractions right now.  We have also decided to take a family vacation to Disneyland.  Ainsley is at the perfect age to go now and we just quite frankly need to get away.  I am so excited!  In fact, my mother-in-law decided to come with us which means Matt and I will even get an evening out!  Now, I do realize we cannot take a vacation anytime I need a distraction from waiting, but as the summer and year moves on, there is plenty of fun to look forward to.  Matt and my 13th anniversary, Ainsley's 4th birthday, summer swimming lessons, park days, a summer camp, my birthday, and then we get into the holidays.  Very exciting!   

I find it fascinating what God reminds us of in our quiet moments.  For example, it was while thinking about blogging, I realized I am acting a bit like a child and whining.  Not a great thing...  However, also during this time I realized what great blessings I have to continue to look forward to.  So, the waiting game continues - distracting and praying.  Most importantly, praying.  It's really all I can do...