Friendship

Today a friend of mine came over and I was yet again reminded how important friendship is and what a truly magnificent gift God gives us in it.  I've been so terribly down in the dumps.  Simply feeling sad, rejected, and cold.  I've not really wanted to be around my friends very often lately.  Not because I don't love them, but because I've been embarrassed by my emotions.  I've felt so embarrassed for the rejection of not being selected yet and then, embarrassed that I'm embarrassed.  That somehow, my friends would judge me and think I'm just not trusting in the Lord enough or that they too would see the rejection as something wrong with me.  Today, I was reminded why these are lies I've been allowing myself and why I must fight them and fight to get out of my comfort zone daily.  Why I so humbly need to be willing to let God hold my heart.  Today, a very dear friend of mine came over and straight forwardly ask me if I've been down.  I began to cry and told her the truth.  All of it.  Her answer was love and understanding.  Not condemnation or judgement.  She simply hugged me and told me I'm beautiful and that she understood why what we are waiting for is hard.  Words I so desperately needed to hear today.  Especially after going swimsuit shopping!  ;)

Thank you, Katy.  Thank you so very much for loving me today.  This is what faith gives me.  HE gives me a husband and truly amazing friends to lift me up and remind me to listen. What a blessing!